I was young and naïve.
I spoke in request of fame and riches, but God reminded me of the breath that He was already giving me,
"Request for the right things and riches and fame will follow."
He spoke and I trembled,
The things of this world were not to be of priority.

I learnt of Solomon and the favour he received.
I spoke in request of wisdom, so He gave me a problem,
"Wisdom shall find you when you solve this problem."
He spoke and I trembled,
The responsibility was on me.

The problem was tough and I could not bear its weight on my own.
I spoke in request of strength yet He added more difficulty to my problem,
"Strength shall find you when you conquer the fears that restrain you."
He spoke and I trembled,
It was on me to rise above my own past.

I felt as if I had been sowing but not reaping any good fruit.
I spoke in request of the faith to endure, but He added more little details to my problem,
"Faith shall find you when you look instead at the bigger picture, and focus on the glory at the end."
He spoke and I trembled,
It was not merely my faith - my attitude and mindset sure needed topping up too.

I comforted myself saying, "It will be fine, in His time."
I spoke in request of patience and He added yet another time delay to when my problem would be solved,
"Patience shall find you when you realise I am not in the business of months nor minutes."
He spoke and I trembled,
Time was not to be a factor, it was my relationship with Him that would make the difference.

I saw the need of fulfilling relationships that would uphold me along my journey.
I spoke in request of love, so He placed me amongst people who were unlovable, rejected and hurt,
"Love is but to have compassion; seek compassion and you will know no end to love."
He spoke and I trembled,
It was not about people upholding me, but how I was prepared to uphold the "least of these".

I found it very challenging to focus my energy on others, especially those who were different from me.
I spoke in request of selflessness and He allowed for my problem to push me beyond my comfort zone,
"Selflessness shall find you when you learn to stop making excuses to love and extend compassion."
He spoke and I trembled,
Jesus had made no excuse when dying on the cross for my neighbour and I.

Everywhere I go, I would think – I would try to seek and do His will.
But never has He once told me what to do,
"I speak only the truth. It is for you to decide what you shall do."
He would speak and I would tremble,
In all humility.

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I felt compelled to compose this because I did not know how else to express my impatience with God.
So I set out to vent my frustration, but once again, God punctuated me,
"Through My Son, you have all you need to overcome and emerge in radiant glory."
He spoke and I trembled,
Every decision is an opportunity.




Gloria In Exelsis Deo

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In quantum mechanics, a probability amplitude is a complex-valued function that describes an uncertain or unknown quantity.

Jian taught me a quantum mechanic equation which describes my predicament exactly: the state of being both here and not here at the same time.

I just got an interview from UNSW for medicine. It was my dream last year. and well, although it still is quite a dream to do med at UNSW, coming to Dunedin has made me reconsider that.

this year here has been simply exhilarating. exhilarating. what a weird word, but i think that kinda sums it up - all the good and the bad - i have had my fun; i have learnt my lessons (or so i'd like to think).

it's not the place, i'd like to emphasize, but the people; the friends i have found. each one so unique, so special, so dear, has just touched my life in ways i can't find the words to describe... this year will be well cherished, wherever i may be.

don't ask me where i want to be, for my heart lies torn inbetween. and like the "ditch" that seperates sydney and dunedin, it runs deep...

... but only as deep as God would allow. and in this decision, as with all others, i guess i only want God's will to be done, whatever it may be.

i should be content with what i have recieved, and i guess i'm learning... all that i have has only come by the grace of God, and what am i to ask for more?

i just pray that when God closes doors, if He should, that He would open more...



it's a half-half probability between the two, but in this time, i just wanna soak up the feeling of being at two places at once. i love you both.




P.S. i don't exactly know why i'm writing about this at this time... in all honesty, it's not affecting me that much at this point... i think x(




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Dennis and Marcus just bashed through Bio and Physics!!

And Jian is very disappointed by their lack of effort...

Love,
Jian

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hehe, stef is here.. feel my POWER..

have you realised that there are no pics on this blog, so, if you were wondering.. hmmm who is this first july person? and what does he look like?

does he look like this?

or this


or this?
or this?
or this?

the correct answer is...

E) All of the above


la la la....
stef :P





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it will all be alright...

God is with you. He is, He is.

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Dennis feels very blur today.

Haha. =) Aww.

-Marcus

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so, dennis decided that he would be a good boy and try to do something about his sleeping habits. suffering from DSS a.k.a. Dennis Sleep Syndrome (not getting up until past lunch everyday) is not something which is very pleasant. messes everything up, it does.

anyhow, dennis was determined. he even went to sleep early for once, setting his alarm clock so early that he knew if SNOOZE was activated, he would still get up in time.

he slept. not a very good sleep but thank God for rest. i think my matress is too soft >.<

anyway, the moment of truth finally came.

RINGGGGG!!!
SNOOZE
RINGGGGG!!!
SNOOZE
RINGGGGG!!!
SNOOZE
(repeat a few more times)

but eventually, out from the nice cozy sheets, a warrior emerged from his biological-need war, victorious. i think i deserve a prize for this.

for once, he actually manage to get into the shower while there was still hot water available. i think it starts to run out about 10ish. and get something to eat. Mum would be so happy!

and so, feeling very accomplished thus far, dennis embarked on his journey towards the dreadful St David Lecture Theatre. whistling and singing a few tunes, he got there in no time at all. it was great to be up this early in the morning! everything was such a calm. no rush, no hurry. peace, serenity.

peace? serenity? wait. why is it soooo quiet?!

dennis made history.

WHERE IS EVERYONE?!

he woke up for a lecture which wasn't on.



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